Life has a way of throwing unexpected twists and turns our way, and the past few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster for me. As my partner and I prepare to move out West, embarking on one of the biggest changes of our lives, I find myself reflecting on my past and how it has shaped who I am today.
A Look Back: Struggles and Triumphs
I’ve experienced both incredible highs and devastating lows throughout my life. Growing up, I struggled with self-esteem and fitting in. With very few friends, I often found myself in situations that were detrimental to my well-being. After high school, I discovered mountain biking and felt a sense of belonging for the first time. I stood on podiums, basking in the approval of others, yet deep down, I wasn’t happy.
My journey through life saw me battling with self-worth, unhealthy relationships, and a partying lifestyle that nearly ended my life. But amidst the chaos, there were moments of clarity and determination. Graduating from college and starting a career in dental hygiene was a wake-up call. I realized I needed to change.
Finding New Paths: From Mountain Biking to Mountaineering
Mountain biking accidents led me to give up the sport after turning pro, and I found solace in high-altitude mountaineering. It brought me peace and joy, but my personal life remained tumultuous. After climbing Denali in 2010, I found myself single and directionless until an unexpected detour led me to New Hampshire, where I discovered my talent for running.
Running brought new achievements, but also new struggles. I became a sponsored trail runner, but my personal life was in shambles. Injuries, mental health issues, and the constant need for validation took a toll on me. I reached rock bottom in 2020, and a friend’s intervention saved my life.
Healing and Self-Love
In my darkest hour, I found hope in an unlikely place: books on Shamanism. They taught me that I had the power to change my life. I realized that I had allowed others to hurt me because I hated myself. The journey to self-love was long and painful, but it was worth it. I began to see my true self, free from labels and identities, and I learned to love myself for who I was.
My final step in healing was completing a 100-mile run in the White Mountains, which I did with the support of friends. This journey wasn’t just for me; it was a fundraiser and inspiration for others facing similar struggles. For the first time, I felt truly loved.
New Beginnings
I spent a year being single, focusing on myself, and it was then that I met someone special. Our friendship grew over time, and when we started dating, it was magical. Falling in love with myself allowed me to attract someone who treated me well, and together, we decided to embark on many new adventures with our pups.
This move represents a significant change, filled with excitement and grief. Leaving behind friends, family, and familiar places is hard, but it’s also an opportunity for growth and new experiences. We’re listening to subtle calls from the Universe and embracing this new chapter with open hearts.
A Message of Hope and Love
As I reflect on my journey, I’m grateful for every experience, good and bad. They’ve shaped me into who I am today, someone who loves herself and is passionate about helping others find joy, peace, health, fitness and a better outlook on life.
If you’re struggling in life and your sport, know that you’re not alone. You have the power to change your life, to forgive, and to find happiness within yourself. Embrace your emotions, both good and bad, and don’t be afraid to seek help.
Thank you to every single person who has been part of my journey in this life. I wouldn’t change a single moment because I love where I am right now. If you need help living your best life, both on and off the race course, reach out. We all deserve to be happy. If you would like to improve your fitness and overall well being, reach out. I would love to help you.
With love,
Kristina